CRISIS OF CONSCIENCE

Can't make out what

Lines on my palm say

Hiding somewhere stays

My fate in those walls

Silently listening to them

Cheering and whistling good luck

A job in their hand, a smile on their face

I sit on the steps and just wait

Hiding my emotions, I see him

Ignorant of my presence,

He disappears before my eyes

In the rage of the ongoing celebration

Descending down, I thought

Not today, not now

I cannot give up so soon

The end cannot come before start

Things would have been simple

If life went as planned

But this is addiction

And I am no philosopher

Kindly fasten your seat belts

Even airplanes suffer bumps

I will take the long route

Farewell to the sole of my shoe.

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I Mess you life :(

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